Dried Off

Going back through my "archives," I would like to sincerely apologize for the absurd and depressing posts.

As an update, I am no longer drinking myself to an early grave (hooray!).  I kind of got a life.  Not really, but more so than before when I spent every free minute of my life attempting to entertain a few strangers via tweets and blogging.

The catalyst  to the drinking problem is being dealt with and I also started school so I don't really have time to waste at the bottom of a bottle anymore.

Anyhow...

I've missed all of my imaginary friends out there, all 8 of you- if any of you have stuck around I appreciate it and I just sent an e-hug in your general direction.  Which I never do.  So appreciate it.

hungover

Have you ever been the person in your group of friends or some situation where you are shaking your head at others because it seemed like they were drinking for every single occasion, even made up ones and times in between? 

Now:  Have you ever been through some situation where all you ever feel like doing is drinking?  And all you can even think of doing is going back to the liquor store, checking the clock to see if its an acceptable time for you to be able to take a drink yet or calling up and hanging out with those friends you used to consider to be annoying drunks?

Yeah, my grandparents have always been alcoholics, so from a very young age I developed a distaste for alcohol and being drunk.  I am still an addict so I did get into some other intense addictions to substances that were just as bad as (if not worse than) alcohol.  I turned 21 and got drunk for like a week and it was whatever to me, nothing exciting.

I'm sure if you agree with me at all, whatever changed your views on alcohol was either heartbreak or the death of a close one.  I have had both of those in the last month and I just realized this morning I probably have a problem now- I am more hungover than I ever remember being, and all I can think of is a breakfast burrito and more alcohol. 

I kind of feel bad for turning up my nose at my family and friends for their drinking habits, because they probably started out just as I am right now:  losing a lover or having to bury a family member or something and just wanting to drown the sorrow for a night, and that felt so good they did it the next night as well, so they just kept doing it over and over again, and now they can't start or end the day without a drink.

I don't want to develop such a serious alcohol problem as that, but I am happy in a weird way that I now understand why some people are the way that they are and they aren't bad because of it.

Sorry this was so idiotic, and if you went through the trouble of reading this I apologize for the major waste of time...

...and bring me a fucking breakfast burrito already, damn it

Caring Parents

Yeah, yeah, I know- I'm still slacking on the writing thing, hopefully you can forgive me.  I do finally have something I'm slightly opinionated about, though, so lets get crackin' so I can give you something to distract your mind for a few minutes.

I am always curious as to why parents find some things in the media and world so offensive, but others they just don't care about.  Katy Perry's boobs on Sesame Street?  If your kid is Sesame Street watching age, they aren't even LOOKING at those things, unless its as a source for nourishment.  Spongebob seeming to be a homosexual?  What's so gay about him? The fact that his home is always clean?  He takes excellent care of his pet?  He has impeccable personal hygiene?  So he may be gay, so what?  He isn't lubing up and takin' it up the ass onscreen.

Aside from TV and movies, why would parents be opposed to their children being addressed by our President while in school?  A couple of weeks ago my 5 year old daughter brought home a form that stated President Obama would be addressing children accross America about the importance of school.  The form wasn't just informative, it was actually something saying you were either giving permission to allow your child to view this speech from the President, OR no, take your child out of class so they would not be a part of it. 

WHY WAS THIS FORM EVEN PRINTED?

When I was in school, I don't remember having to take anything home to my mom asking if she'd like me taken out of class while Bush or Clinton spoke.  What could Obama possibly tell students that would be harmful to them in any way?  Who cares if you don't personally like Obama, why is it necessary to program your children to be the same closed-minded bigot that you are?

If you'd like an example of how idiotic things can be, here in Utah we don't focus much on Sex-Education.  In fact, its repressed to the point of being comical.  I have taken permission-slips home asking parents if its 1) Okay to have their child participate in the class and receive all education, 2) Okay for the child to be in class for the non-sexual portion of the class and NOT learn about safe practices or contraception, or 3) Be taken out of the class completely.  Those choices aren't really relevant anyway, because we only learned the "abstinence" method of birth control.  Quite a few parents had completely opted-out of having their child in the class at all, or had them only do the "wholesome and decent" parts of the class.  Do they even realize what that can do to a kid?  First you're embarrassing the fuck out of your kid because now you've displayed them as the "weirdo with the lame parents."  Then they will be the kids who don't know anything about sex whatsoever, pushing them further into the outcast-region of high school politics.  Most importantly, you are depriving them of information that could be saving you or them from a life-changing situation (STD's, pregnancy, etc).  I got the full class, which wasn't much because like I said- Utah runs its own censorship in the education system  making sex out to be the most filthy act to engage in, but I always wished I had more information on the subject.  I'm not going to put all the blame on this faulty system, because I do take responsibilities for my own actions, but I got pregnant at 16.  Maybe if I had even been allowed to see a fucking condom before then, circumstances may be a little different right now.

I'm not saying to go and start shoving condoms in your kids' backpacks and not monitor what they watch on tv, just adjust your brain to the fact that it is now 2010.  Stop bitching about Tinky-Winky carrying a purse or Obama being black, and start being concerned that something that stupid is the only thing you've focused your parental concern on.

I'm back...

I would apologize to my avid readers for not posting anything new in like MONTHS, but I don’t have any of those.  I don’t think I even have readers really, but to you random-glancers- thanks for stopping by.

 I’ve been doing a lot of soul-searching for the last few mon-HAHAHAHA sorry, couldn’t keep a straight face.  No, honestly, I’ve been really lazy.  I’ve been smoking a LOT of weed, getting totally caught up in the twitter addiction and resting up and kind of just not making any time to write anything worth reading, blog-wise.

 If you know anything about me, you are aware of the fact that I have arthritis and fibromyalgia (among many other health/mental problems) and over the summer I’ve gotten some health and energy back, so I’ve really been taking full advantage of that.  Now that fall is settling in and the barometric-pressure is affecting my health again I’m sure that I’ll have nothing but time to write again.

 Yeah, this is a really boring post, I’m surprised you’ve continued reading to this point, so I’ll cut it off here, but I’ll get back to writing shit that may actually be worth reading again soon.

Atheism Quotes

"It appears to me (whether rightly or wrongly) that direct arguments against Christianity and theism produce hardly any effect on the public; and freedom of thought is best promoted by the gradual illumination of men's minds which follows from the advance of science." [Darwin]

"If we believe absurdities, we shall commit atrocities." [Voltaire]

"I cannot imagine a God who rewards and punishes the objects of his creation, whose purposes are modeled after our own -- a God, in short, who is but a reflection of human frailty. Neither can I believe that the individual survives the death of his body, although feeble souls harbor such thoughts through fear or ridiculous egotism." [Einstein]

"Faith means not wanting to know what is true." [Nietzsche]

"I cannot believe in the immortality of the soul.... No, all this talk of an existence for us, as individuals, beyond the grave is wrong. It is born of our tenacity of life – our desire to go on living … our dread of coming to an end." [Edison]

"The Bible is not my book nor Christianity my profession. I could never give assent to the long, complicated statements of Christian dogma." [Lincoln]

"Religion is a byproduct of fear. For much of human history, it may have been a necessary evil, but why was it more evil than necessary? Isn't killing people in the name of God a pretty good definition of insanity?" [Arthur C. Clarke]

"Religions are all alike – founded upon fables and mythologies." [Thomas Jefferson]

"Say what you will about the sweet miracle of unquestioning faith, I consider a capacity for it terrifying and absolutely vile." [Kurt Vonnegut]

"Religion is based . . . mainly on fear . . . fear of the mysterious, fear of defeat, fear of death. Fear is the parent of cruelty, and therefore it is no wonder if cruelty and religion have gone hand in hand. . . . My own view on religion is that of Lucretius. I regard it as a disease born of fear and as a source of untold misery to the human race." [Bertrand Russell]